I've come to realize...

So, as I am putting away groceries today I made a HUGE realization about my life. I've become too preoccupied with other things and put my family, my home on the back burner. I've been striving to be that "it" mom, the "it" person for ministries and volunteering. Trying to impress who? I don't know. What I do know is Travis has been telling me for a loooong time that I need to scale back. And, slowly I have started to. Today, for the first time in a long time, I stayed home. I took the kids to school, I clipped coupons, did the dishes, picked up the kids' rooms, did some laundry, made Valentine's Day Cookies for Kalib's class. I am happier today than I have been in a long time. I wasn't worried with going here and there and doing this or that for a ministry or a school function. Not that those things are bad, but for me, at this point in my life, they've become a burden. Not to anyone's fault except my own. I think now, the thing I am looking forward to about moving is the scaling back even more. Refocusing on my family life, my home. I'm not going to withdraw from society, I'm not going to become a hermit that lives only for my family. But, I am going to put my heart where it needs to be. I am going to do the one thing I always wanted to do. I am going to be a wife and a mom that cares lovingly for her family. I want to have a strong Christ centered marriage and raise successful children that always put God first. If those two single things are the only great things I ever do in my life, I've accomplished more than I ever dreamed. I love my family and I want to dedicate my life to ministering to them. After all, I know it's what God has called me to do in my time on this earth. I am no longer going to stand for society telling me I'm worthless because being a "stay at home mom" is what I choose to do with my time and my life. It is the job God has chosen me for and I'm going to do it well, not half heartedly like I have been.

Oh, and one more thing, before I sign off....Trav, I'm sorry for the things I've neglected in our life while I've been figuring this out! You're so great to hang in there and let things happen in God's timing! I love you forever!!!